Change. It's not fair that some things don't stay the same. It can be a good thing and it can be a bad thing, but at the moment, change is something that I don't like.
Stress levels change from day to day. You may be stressed only slightly and then the next, you don't know if you can breathe, for fear of going under the weight. It makes it very difficult to cope with day to day life.
This year has been so full of change and emotion. My friend, Donna dying; having school throw me so many curves with having all four english classes at the same time; my back / hip giving me issues to make me take medicine that makes me sleepy and lethargic while at work; not knowing if I was going to be rehired for the ensuing year after the budge crunches and cuts by the district and state; Meghan graduating from high school; the boys in their freshman year getting used to the constant day to day of high school; Meghan leaving home in the middle of the night with a bag - leaving a note that said that she could not stay at home with us anymore - and then the constant work that needs to be done not only for school but for my audio as well; and lets not leave out that my husband is now having to travel to two different cities to work in two different stores now that our business has expanded into two locations.
Audo wise: I have worked on Father Brown, The Prince and the Pauper, Treasure Island, and more Father Brown then soon AESOP. I am also helping out with Green Lantern with Misfits Audio.
Tired. Yes, I believe that tired is the word. Tired of change. I need the world to slow down not so that I can get off, but so that I can catch up and at least try to relax. That's not too much to ask for - is it?
Ah well, it will slowly get better. No use to really complain. It is what it is and I know that the Lord will not put on me more than I can handle. It just sometimes seems like it's sometimes more difficult than other times.
I guess that this lyric goes so well with me right now:
"Jesus, take the wheel, take it from my hands, 'cause I can't do this on my own. I'm letting go, so give me one more chance to save me from this road I'm on... Jesus, take the wheel."
~mj
