Saturday.
Looking back over the day that I spent with Mindy, Drake, Kat, Chris, David and my boys at Schilterbahn, it was all in all a good day. I learned more about my audio friends and got to experience first hand the love of these people. Not just the love of a relationship between the couples, but it was also the care and concern that they showed to me. Finding out first hand that there's a gentle hand, a loving touch, a squeeze of concern, or even a 'I got you covered' look helped to make this particular day so memorable.
Even when I was upset - and rightly so - I was comforted and supported. I do appreciate that more than anything else in the world. That let's me know who I can trust... who I can depend on... and who I can open with.
07 August, 2010
06 August, 2010
Aug. 6
Friday.
Working on audio to help me relax today, but it's most difficult when you're brain keeps going back to things - remembering. I did get some work done and for that it was a great day. Busy but great.
Working on audio to help me relax today, but it's most difficult when you're brain keeps going back to things - remembering. I did get some work done and for that it was a great day. Busy but great.
05 August, 2010
Aug. 5
Thursday.
Society:
Oh why can't we get along in our society? Why do we have to discriminate and judge people on the party that they vote for, the way that they want to dress, the church that someone goes to, the people that they want to date whether they are of the same sex or not, or even if they want to marry someone of the same sex?
I don't get it. I don't. Perhaps it has to do with my heart. I wear it on my sleeve. Probably not the best thing to do, but it happens. I get hurt easily and I cry often - sometimes not when I'm hurt, but when I'm happy to boot. I just don't understand why people judge others.
Whatever happened to "Live and let live?" Or "Do unto others and you would have them do unto you"? What's so wrong with society that we have to tell people who they can or can't marry? Who are we to say what's beautiful and god-awful? Aren't we all created in the image and glory of God?
We are so judgmental and I don't like it. I don't like it one bit. Because I don't like it, I do try to be someone who is not judgemental. I want to leave the judging up to the one that created me - the one who is looking out for me and making sure that I'm safe and loved within His arms?
Invitations:
I went against something that I normally don't do - but that darn little green guy was pestering me today. Jealousy. Not a really good creature, but he knows what to push - doesn't he?
I normally don't ask to do anything with anyone. Normally, I wait for the invitation. I don't like to barge in and try to take over. I did today though, but I still was unable to go... parental duties. I could have gotten someone else to pick them up, but I guess in a way, I needed the wake up call. I did.
I needed to actually get away from the situation. I just can't help it though... I'm human and I have my faults.
Even so though - (and here goes the heart again) - why does it hurt when you can't do something that you most truly want and wish to do with friends??
~MJ
Society:
Oh why can't we get along in our society? Why do we have to discriminate and judge people on the party that they vote for, the way that they want to dress, the church that someone goes to, the people that they want to date whether they are of the same sex or not, or even if they want to marry someone of the same sex?
I don't get it. I don't. Perhaps it has to do with my heart. I wear it on my sleeve. Probably not the best thing to do, but it happens. I get hurt easily and I cry often - sometimes not when I'm hurt, but when I'm happy to boot. I just don't understand why people judge others.
Whatever happened to "Live and let live?" Or "Do unto others and you would have them do unto you"? What's so wrong with society that we have to tell people who they can or can't marry? Who are we to say what's beautiful and god-awful? Aren't we all created in the image and glory of God?
We are so judgmental and I don't like it. I don't like it one bit. Because I don't like it, I do try to be someone who is not judgemental. I want to leave the judging up to the one that created me - the one who is looking out for me and making sure that I'm safe and loved within His arms?
Invitations:
I went against something that I normally don't do - but that darn little green guy was pestering me today. Jealousy. Not a really good creature, but he knows what to push - doesn't he?
I normally don't ask to do anything with anyone. Normally, I wait for the invitation. I don't like to barge in and try to take over. I did today though, but I still was unable to go... parental duties. I could have gotten someone else to pick them up, but I guess in a way, I needed the wake up call. I did.
I needed to actually get away from the situation. I just can't help it though... I'm human and I have my faults.
Even so though - (and here goes the heart again) - why does it hurt when you can't do something that you most truly want and wish to do with friends??
~MJ
04 August, 2010
Aug. 4
Wednesday.
Perception and Miscommunication.
Those two words are something that really need to be focused on. They both are two things that can throw you for a loop and then when you get a chance to really see things as they are - you feel like a dope for something that you've done.
And why is it that when you are talking - we don't reall listen - and then hear something else?
Those three things are so important and we need to really focus on all of them.
School.
Oh man... I'm already stressed. I went to the admin building today to make sure that I wasn't going to be losing my stipend money. I get paid by a federal fund - being a special education teacher. On top of that money, I get an extra bit for having to do all the necessar paperwork that we do to make sure that the kids are doing what they need to be doing to learn. Make sense, right?
When I saw my schedule the other day, I needed to know what was going on because they had me teaching two regular classes of English. That would mean that I'm not teaching 5 classes of Special Education. I would only be teaching 3. That's not 80% of the school day. That's 60%. So, in effect, I could lose my stipend.
However, I was told that I would be getting my stipend, that I did not volunteer for the position that they put me in, and I was told that my schedule would probably change because a federally funded teacher can't teach regular education classes.
So, my stress level did go down a bit. Went down a lot. But regardless, I'm better than I was this morning.
Thank goodness for people who listen to me and help me to understand what I need to do. Also thank goodness for Jennifer Key who came in and helped Lisa figure out my schedule. Hopefully it will be better when I go back to school on Monday.
~MJ
Perception and Miscommunication.
Those two words are something that really need to be focused on. They both are two things that can throw you for a loop and then when you get a chance to really see things as they are - you feel like a dope for something that you've done.
And why is it that when you are talking - we don't reall listen - and then hear something else?
Those three things are so important and we need to really focus on all of them.
School.
Oh man... I'm already stressed. I went to the admin building today to make sure that I wasn't going to be losing my stipend money. I get paid by a federal fund - being a special education teacher. On top of that money, I get an extra bit for having to do all the necessar paperwork that we do to make sure that the kids are doing what they need to be doing to learn. Make sense, right?
When I saw my schedule the other day, I needed to know what was going on because they had me teaching two regular classes of English. That would mean that I'm not teaching 5 classes of Special Education. I would only be teaching 3. That's not 80% of the school day. That's 60%. So, in effect, I could lose my stipend.
However, I was told that I would be getting my stipend, that I did not volunteer for the position that they put me in, and I was told that my schedule would probably change because a federally funded teacher can't teach regular education classes.
So, my stress level did go down a bit. Went down a lot. But regardless, I'm better than I was this morning.
Thank goodness for people who listen to me and help me to understand what I need to do. Also thank goodness for Jennifer Key who came in and helped Lisa figure out my schedule. Hopefully it will be better when I go back to school on Monday.
~MJ
03 August, 2010
Aug. 3
Tuesday.
What an interesting day. I met some more of my fellow cohorts at work and have found out a very interesting schedule that they plan on me to follow. It's rather interesting and intriguing of course:
1 - English 1 and English 2 Resource
2 - English 1 Regular
3 - PLC - Professional Learning Community
A Lunch
4 - Conference
5 - English 1 Regular
6 - English 3 and English 4 Resource
7 - English 1 Inclusion
So, I get to flip flop back and forth on things all year long unless they decide to change it before school starts. It could change. Truly. The board isn't set, but this is going to be hard to make it to the games on Thursday and Friday on time because I won't have a way to get over to the bank before the games start to set up the concessions.
I'm going to have to delegate - BIG time.
Man, I'm already getting a headache just thinking about it.
HELP.
~MJ
What an interesting day. I met some more of my fellow cohorts at work and have found out a very interesting schedule that they plan on me to follow. It's rather interesting and intriguing of course:
1 - English 1 and English 2 Resource
2 - English 1 Regular
3 - PLC - Professional Learning Community
A Lunch
4 - Conference
5 - English 1 Regular
6 - English 3 and English 4 Resource
7 - English 1 Inclusion
So, I get to flip flop back and forth on things all year long unless they decide to change it before school starts. It could change. Truly. The board isn't set, but this is going to be hard to make it to the games on Thursday and Friday on time because I won't have a way to get over to the bank before the games start to set up the concessions.
I'm going to have to delegate - BIG time.
Man, I'm already getting a headache just thinking about it.
HELP.
~MJ
02 August, 2010
Aug. 2
Monday.
Today was more than interesting.
There was a big mishap with Meghan and band. I don't want to actually go into it here just because I don't want to think about it much longer. I'd like to forget it. She's just going to have to learn that she can't run away from things and own up to her mistakes. Bleck.
On the other side of things though, I went to my first EDC meeting and had everything set up for my first business as treasurer. It's going to be an interesting year between running around like a chicken without a head, but I kinda did this to myself. After this year though, I believe that I'm finished. I will have been so worn smooth out that I won't know what to do any more.
I will be praying for strength, endurance and patience during the coming months. Anyone who wants to help out with that, please feel free.
~MJ
Today was more than interesting.
There was a big mishap with Meghan and band. I don't want to actually go into it here just because I don't want to think about it much longer. I'd like to forget it. She's just going to have to learn that she can't run away from things and own up to her mistakes. Bleck.
On the other side of things though, I went to my first EDC meeting and had everything set up for my first business as treasurer. It's going to be an interesting year between running around like a chicken without a head, but I kinda did this to myself. After this year though, I believe that I'm finished. I will have been so worn smooth out that I won't know what to do any more.
I will be praying for strength, endurance and patience during the coming months. Anyone who wants to help out with that, please feel free.
~MJ
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)