04 Oct - Emotional

I can't help but be a little emotional... read on to see why...

Donna (the teacher friend that's in Dallas because of something in her abdomen) - they were calling it a tumor. It wasn't just one. it was four. They went in last Tuesday and took out her adrenal gland. It was then on Thursday when I talked to Donna and asked how she was doing. Her response was "Tell Debra that she was right!"

I wasn't quite sure what that meant. I went ahead and asked her exactly what she meant by that. It seems that Donna went to Argentina a little over a year ago. She picked up a parasite when she was down there. The "amoeba" as Donna was calling it had been leaving it's mark on various areas of her body and replicating. That's what the tumors were from - a parasite - an amoeba. They know what it is now. Finally. That's some good and bad news. Good because they can go in and take care of that and make her well again. The bad - Donna's already weak. I'd hate for them to start on this new medicine and it not work and things turn south again. I'm trying to remain positive that she will be better. I can't help but think that she will be better and that she will come back to school better than ever. I can't help but think that.

Hearing that news from her was like a weight lifted from my shoulders. I am so thankful that the doctors found out what it was. I'm not sure why it took so long to figure it out... but still... I'm elated.

Now... the bad....

I'm finding that my producing time has become almost nil. I'm not happy about this and I know that my director antzy to get the file that he needs. School has been so hard on me this year. I can't seem to get my head wrapped around things and it's driving me nuts. It's like every other day, I'm trying to push on and forward and I keep running smack into a wall.

I need more hours in the day to get stuff done that I want to get done.

After a long conversation with Matt a couple of days ago, I know that I need to make more time for the family instead of time for audio and what not. I guess that I need to leave school at school, but if I'm not prepared for school - I'll get in trouble. I need to be prepared. I can't not have it done. It's not me not being prepared... it's me going to and fro so much that I can't seem to get anything done.

Traveling here - traveling there... getting more paperwork and more people on my caseload. I don't know what else I'm to do. I'm just doing the best that I can and I can't do no more. (Sorry for the incorrect grammar there - but it's the damn truth.)

Taking a break and relaxing isn't going to help me. I wish that it could. It only backs things up further and then I'm not getting anything done. So... what do I do?

I don't know. I wish I knew.

03 Oct. -- Cookoffs

I have officially been in two cookoffs. The first one - I flopped at making my chili. The chili was good, but it didn't place in any word of the imagination - except my teammates thought that it was pretty good.

This time, I placed 4th out of the eleven people that cooked chili. That's not too bad.

But bed calls... and the back hurts... so it's time.

Short but it definitely tells how my weekend went... and I'm tired.