26 Sept. 2010 - Sanity...

Looking back over the last few days, I'm coming to the realization that I fear that I'll never be "fine and dandy" again. The issues with my back, the fear of losing a dear teacher/friend, and constantly doing something is not helping me at all. I also fear that my one and only thing - my sanity - will be leaving next. When that goes, I'm not liable.

So much has piled up on top of me... work being the main thing - my job. I'm not talking audio... I'm talking just doing my work at school - and then helping to keep Donna's classes going - that's another added on that I did to myself - but I don't want her to worry about her classes when she's in the hospital wondering what the hell is growing in her abdomen. She has enough stress.

I'm just going to ignore the pain in my back - do what I must do to survive and hope that I won't lose what little sanity I have left.