Nov. 15

I know that I need to take a break and relax.  I know this.  So - how can I do so when I have so much stuff to do? 

I've been working on a lot of audio.  A lot.  Since this summer, I've worked on the following:  Buck Alice, Jarrem Lee, Prince and the Pauper, Father Brown, Vincent Price (not completed) that I can just think of my own without looking back.

Prince and the Pauper is not completely done yet and it's due in 2 days!!  2 DAYS!!!  The music is still being worked on and Jerry wants things changed now.  I'm so seriously worried that they will not be completed b the 17th.  It's just a constant worry and I don't want to make Jerry further behind.  I do know that a bit of this is still because of what Chris did to Colonial.  It's just nuts!

Jarrem Lee is supposed to get done as soon as possible because it's already on the air.  We have two more to finish - the one that I'm working on right now and then the last one.  Here's to hoping that I can get it done fairly quickly.  It's just with Prince and the Pauper looming - it's hard to get focused on this - especially when I'm not really into Jarrem Lee anymore.

I do want to get back into Vincent Price.  It was one of those fun things - turning Anastas into an ape was/is a rather daring task as well as keeping it decent sounding yet scary!  It has some really interesting things in it and yet - I can't get to it because I have to go back and finish what someone else someone else can't do.

I really don't get that - I guess.  I don't understand how I get picked to do some things when it seems that others can't.  I'm not sure how that makes me feel.  I know that I can get things done - even when I don't like to do it - but come on - why can't others do the same?  Buck down and just do the work!

I have found out on the health front what is wrong with my back.  My L1, L2, L3, L4, L5 and S1 (that's all of my lower back going into my hip area) is degenerative.  I don't have much "goo" in between the vertebrae anymore - so I'm going to have to go to physical therapy and then I was also told that I'm a prime candidate for cortizone shots in my back.  I'm in pain.   Sometimes constant, sometimes ache. It’s crappy that I have to have a lot of meds – Vicodan for pain and then Restoril for help with sleeping because Vidocan doesn’t put me to sleep anymore. This is starting to get a bit ridiculous. I’m tired of going to the doctor. I’m tired of being in pain. I’m tired of it all --- and I’ve not even started on physical therapy.

That’s something else. Physical therapy. They want me to leave during the school day to go to this and it’s not going to work. My principal is not going to let me leave during the day to do that when it comes down to it. I mean really.

So, now, I’m at school thinking about all of this and can only get more and more stressed because how am I going to get better if I don’t do the physical therapy or whatever my doctor wants me to do?

I’m just tired of all the pain – tired of being stressed out and tired of being tired. It just sucks! MAJORLY!

Frustrating.

On a totally other topic going back to audio – I’m starting to work on Quantum Retribution once again. It’s slow going but it’s going. At least it’s something – right? Right.